When I was younger, I was pretty into drugs.
Same. If I told you half of what I've done, you'd think nobody could do that much. I regret nothing.
Swansea's monologue at the end of Mouthwashing sums it up pretty well for me.
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"I got a collar shirt, mortgage and a credit card."
"All the things that make a good man."
"I hoped I could raise my children to be better than their old man."
"I wanted to believe I was never one setback away from my worst self."
"But the truth is."
"Discipline."
"Drive."
"Routine."
"The endless fucking desperation to get shit done."
"A loving wife? Great kids?"
"Sobriety?"
"I’m telling you."
"You."
"Accomplishments I’d been chasing all my life."
"Never felt as good as I expected when I crossed the finish line."
"..."
"So now that we’re at the end. Takin’ inventory."
"Those nights spinning out of my head, sinking into the sofa."
"Broken glass in my palms. Bleeding dry the funniest thing ever."
"Old dogs laughing and snarling on a waterbed floor, mocking the moon for daring to show its face."
"All nausea and wreckage and vomit and ugly cruelty."
"The only problem in the world an empty bottle."
"Those were the best days of my life."
"Yeah."
"...Those were the best days of my life."