You really need to learn how to be an ally to the underrepresented/oppressed people of this world without caving to eugenicist/white supremacist framing.

It is the fascists who believe in race science and built-in bigotry; it is our job as materialists to take the world as it is and build from it, not as what we think it is based on rationalized or internalized racism.

Plus, you'll feel better realizing that you aren't some doomed "white" person forced to hate yourself due to some misplaced blame rather than what is actually at fault: the systems we've had impressed upon us through little fault of our own.