If any of what you're saying is true (and I don't mean to imply that I think you're making things up, it's just that what you're describing is so far beyond anything I've ever witnessed that I find it difficult to imagine), then it sounds like you are surrounded by some truely horrible people.
Your posts seem quite vague though. I don't know if you ever mentioned what country you're in, who these people are or how it's even possible for them to prevent you from speaking.