CW: suicide, drug mention, ableism, islamophobia

I've loved politics ever since I was spergy little 10-year-old watching the fucking Glenn Beck Program (don't ask). I grew to love sociology in my teen years, and I always knew a bunch of rare facts like how the Soviet Union ended the gender pay gap in Eastern Europe over 50 years ago, or how queer acceptance scales almost exclusively with HDI, but I was severely limited by the aforementioned Standard American Upbringing.

It was so goddamn easy and enjoyable to talk to people about politics back then, especially since I hated both US parties and was essentially a Bernie Bro. I was able to fluently relate to and discuss common grievances of people within the US and without while being proud of my (in comparison) vast knowledge.

However, in 2025 I got caught up in the Chinamaxxing craze and after a couple months of study (Governance of China my beloved) I sort of crossed a threshold and all of the liberal sophistry I had once loved became nails on a chalkboard.

I genuinely can't talk to people about politics anymore without wanting to blow my brains out or feeling like I'm smuggling fentanyl precursor in my asshole OR being treated like a schizophrenic islamist talking about the CIA and US war crimes.

TAKE ME BAAAAAAACK I WANNA BE A WESTERN CHAUVANIST AGAIN I WANNA FEEL SMART AND ENLIGHTENED. FUCK YOU LENIN I DONT WANNA READ ANY MORE THEORY, PLEASE

edit: guys, I promise I'm not actually a chud anymore, and I have the Kim Il-Sung x Osama Bin Laden self-insert yaoi fanfiction to prove it.