hello been a minute :) i did this as part of a challenge for a small art community i am in (not on here). i am sorry to not have a scanner because i am sure some detail gets lost but oh well. many mistakes made as usual but it still helped me learn a lot and i had been wanting to do another piece involving marginalia so it was a good opportunity.
That sounds very frustrating and I know some of those feelings well, myself. I hope things get easier and that you find yourself able to continue your work and get it printed too.