So I've been living pretty much as a NEET for the past 4-5 years or so. I have severe ADHD and only in recent years did I get prescribed Elvanse, and while they do help, I'm still struggling to deal with the bad habits and instant gratification addiction I built up over the 20+ years before then. After a lot of denial I've had to accept that I cannot have a healthy relationship with things like video games and youtube and have to banish them from my life pretty much entirely. Which is easier said than done because they've been my life for years now.

Getting rid of gaming is the easier part. I've unplugged my PC and placed it in my parents' room. Unplugged all the cables too and put them in a cable drawer so if I were to get the urge to game again, it would be too much of a hassle to turn the PC on again and it'd no longer be instant gratification.

Youtube is the bigger hurdle because it's so much more accessible. I deleted the app from my devices and put website blockers on my laptop and smart devices. I've gone several weeks without gaming multiple times but I have never made it more than two days without opening youtube.

I'm currently on Day 9 with no games and about 15 hours with no YT. I'm sitting in my basement, staring at my laptop screen which has literally every possible distraction outlet blocked and/or uninstalled. The lack of stimulation is intense. The classic chronic ADHD leg-shaking is so intense rn that it's making me sore, I'm constantly biting my lip, sometimes hitting my leg with my fist or hitting my desk with the palm of my hand. Dopamine withdrawal symptoms I suppose? Has anyone else been in a situation like this? Does it go away? I guess I've been frying my brain with overstimulation for years now, I just hope I can un-fry it.