I still try to give them a watch because he got me back into the outdoors which I don't get out into enough but it was nice to see him go out when I couldn't get out myself.

I don't hold his problems against him, I lost my sibling to cancer around a year before him and grief can make you do stupid things but all the content had a tinge of it rather than maybe just giving us the content he had with an occasional update on his progress.