Went to my university library and checked out a ton of books about death. It was helpful to get a lot of takes on it, including multiple philosophical and religious deep dives. I no longer feared death afterward for some time. It gave me the courage to ditch my shitty job and start a new life 1500 miles away on a shoestring budget. Sometimes you've just gotta shake things up to feel alive again. Even if it means living like a hobo for a while.