Proud? It may be a nurtured perspective for partaking in one side of the oldest profession. People buy stuff they have a hard time with themself. Hiring the right contractor for the job is a sign of maturity and self confidence imo.

I do recognize its a scary thing to dip your toe in, and respect anyone who does. There's probably a reason to look down upon a john if they're out there to satisfy some abusive lust. I wouldnt feel that emnity towards a dude just looking for an experience, though.

Anyway, i support your decision to address your behavioral health with a rational mindset.