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submitted 11 months ago by Moss@hexbear.net to c/askchapo@hexbear.net

I've been living with depression since I was 14. It felt inescapable, but for a couple of years, I was doing really well. I stopped going to therapy, I was able to handle bad things, anxiety wasn't tearing me apart, I had goals I wanted to achieve. Then in the last two years of college, my depression came back worse than ever. Trying to get better isn't even on the table, right now I'm just trying to want to get better.

But for a few years, I was able to think to myself that I was happy, and that depression was a thing of the past. For the life of me, I can't remember why. I feel like I'm doomed to be stuck in a cycle of falling in and out of depression for years at a time at best.

But has anyone actually come out of depression, for real? Is it possible to say that you dealt with your depression and you are genuinely happy, or at least want to be happy, and you think you will be that way for the rest of your life? Because I genuinely don't see how people are supposed to be happy.

Also did we used to have a mental health comm?

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[-] tim_curry@hexbear.net 1 points 11 months ago* (last edited 11 months ago)

18 years of non stop depression and crippling anxiety kinda just stopped on a specific day. It was in the middle of an argument with a shitty friend who I let push my buttons for like 10 years and I thought "wtf am I doing?". My constant grovelling for accpetance and love turned into a more "fuck you" attitude and then I cut off family and friends who made my life hell.

Work currently sucks and I've got a lot of things on my mind but I am yet to hit even a fraction of the lows I used to get. It took 18 years of beating myself up to get to this point which during that time I saw no way out.

This is specific to me ofc but idk if it helps at all

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