18 years of non stop depression and crippling anxiety kinda just stopped on a specific day. It was in the middle of an argument with a shitty friend who I let push my buttons for like 10 years and I thought "wtf am I doing?". My constant grovelling for accpetance and love turned into a more "fuck you" attitude and then I cut off family and friends who made my life hell.
Work currently sucks and I've got a lot of things on my mind but I am yet to hit even a fraction of the lows I used to get. It took 18 years of beating myself up to get to this point which during that time I saw no way out.
This is specific to me ofc but idk if it helps at all