Joking about a person who went thru massive pain and was laughed at about it. Good job!
Maybe you are on par with Manson? You definitely sound like someone who cares about others in the way Manson did.
I touch grass every day, and I don't laugh at the suffering of others like some sociopathic person.
Maybe ask yourself what you find funny about the suffering of others, and you will understand where I'm coming from. I highly doubt you will because sociopaths never do.