My folks “didn’t want the kids on pills” and so despite needing help I was just called lazy and never received any help.

this is realistically a bigger problem though, your parents just didn't care about your well being very much.

You need to examine your shallow attitude about medication. It’s “I don’t like it because other stuff is better”, and a bunch of anxiety around what if what if what if.

i've examined it plenty enough, it's a personal opinion of mine. I'm not forcing it on others, and im certainly not having kids. You'll notice a lot of problems with them are as you said, what ifs, that's true. But i simply don't trust myself to maintain something like that, or for that matter, trust anybody else to maintain it for me. Doctors can be very helpful, but sometimes they aren't, or maybe they are but insurance just refuses to cover your meds because they decided that you did one too many instances of illicit substances in your past, or who knows what fucking reasons they have.

If i had a hypothetical child, it would be up to them, i unlike other people, give other people free will. If they believe that medication is going to be beneficial for them, who am i to tell them what to do. Ironically, you seem to be arguing that i should be supporting drugs unquestionably, which is objectively bad. However i'm not holding that against you, i'm just making my point here. There are certain problems, which most consider to be outweighed by the positives, i however, disagree.

I do not make the rules, i just exist in proximity to them. As does everyone else.