That is perhaps the biggest relief of bothering to learn about the reality of nuclear warfare, at first the stages of grief just spiraled nearly out of control for me. I really did not want to believe that such things were not only possible but also have been pretty close to happening at any given moment the 70 years where theyve been allowed to proliferate. Coming from "How would I and so many other people even attempt to survive this?" to "Why on Earth would I want to see the destruction of everything I know and love as planet Earth and survive?" was a real relief. If the nukes drop I'm finding a way to die in the initial blasts.