If I, as a secret FBI CIA agent at Langley posting on a Ukranian hater/train enjoyer forum, can offer anything, it's perhaps a different perspective for your mental. There's a lot about improving your situation that is fun, revitalizing, and rewarding without feeling punitive and grindy. Perhaps you can think about how much room there is to explore and expand in life. Like, if my problem was feeling meek and insecure around others and took a BJJ class, it's not like I'm resigned to having to be roughed up, it'd be like "Wow, I didn't realize how fun it would be to treat rough housing as an art!"

Besides, constant growth is for capitalists and even a capitalist knows the money line is all jagged and weird as it climbs to infinity in pursuit of providing value to shareholders. There's nothing you need to keep in mind in life besides trying your best to get the things you want and loving as hard as you can in every moment. The rest will take care of itself even if you never give it another thought again. I would SHARE a moment by HOLDING you