Ok ok ok. After a disastrous start to the day things have progressed a bit. Actually got a tiny bit of gardening done after neglecting the balcony for months . tidied up the dead stuff, improved the staking on the manzano chilli, shuffled pots around - including the very sickly and cold curry big mama leaf plant to a more sheltered spot (it was getting depressing to look at. And it'll come back in spring.).
I won't even be at home for most of the next month but I went ahead and sowed some coriander and garlic chives, and have soaked some snow pea and sweet pea seeds to sow tomorrow, because what the hey. They'll look after themselves, kind of. Everything's had a very thorough water + feed if needed, and I'm amazed at how relatively well that manzano is doing despite all the neglect. Truly a cool climate chillo, definitely a good choice for Melbourne. (e: yes it's related to rocoto).
All that and a whole lot of staring into space have improved things as well as cleaning the kitchen and having a long overdue shower with hair/scalp cleanse. The sun has made a big difference too. Body has calmed the fuck down and is healing itself.
Neck still hurts but I'll call off my trip to the 'rat tomorrow and take it easy, hopefully I'll be right as rain by Monday. I have work to catch up on but today is for total relaxation