Sometimes I find myself wanting to go like "what would my life be like if xyz part of my life had gone differently?" That sort of thing. I spose in kind of a regretful way, like wishing for a better path. But then, from a diamat point of view, it seems about as meaningful as asking "what if I was a different person?" I mean, my genetics would be the same still, but if my early life had been significantly different for example, I wouldn't have a lot of the same memories that I have, I wouldn't have had a lot of the same experiences that I had to grow from. There'd still be aspects of me that would be the same (namely, predispositions) but the rest of it could be pretty different.

But I might be looking at it in more of an old paradigm way too. Maybe the communist way would be to say "yeah, it could have been better and here's how" for the purposes of better understanding what needs to be better for people broadly going forward. I can't change what the foundation of my life was, but I can try to contribute to other people having a better foundation.