You frame it as being ashamed or critical of your past self, but this is one of the most "exciting" things about this current moment. It's a true test of the resiliency of propaganda and chauvinistic social programming.

If it is this re-election that made you shake out of it, not the previous term, that seems to indicate that the reasons you thought that way were either not deeply rooted, or were worn down over time. Either of those explanations are also very exciting when it comes to communicating with people that might be on the same journey as the rest of us.