To be American is to be trapped in a death cult. Even if you get enough glimpses behind the lies to know the worldview fostered here is evil and bullshit, you still need to be able to convince the other death cultists that you buy into their lies lest they converge on you and eat you alive. This, unfortunately, requires still looking at the world through their myopic lens and, when one does this enough, they risk buying into the lies all over again; it is so, so much easier than sitting with the knowledge that you and every single person you know and love are flesh eating monsters who are just as complicit in the crimes of the empire as the ones pulling the trigger, and almost as complicit as those writing the checks.