It's a somewhat complex topic with a lot of individual variation but generally speaking:

• it's going to have whatever significance it has to you personally. It's an event in your memory and is wholly subject to your brain and it's unique structure and experiences.
• it doesn't have to make sense, and such experiences are, famously, the hardest to make sense of.
• fortunately dignity is also an intrinsic / internal quality and very possible for you to regain.
• highly recommend EMDR (eye movement desensitization and reprocessing) to help you process the event towards something less distressing in a controlled, supported, and slightly accelerated manner.
• EMDR can be a bit rough / drag stuff back up and you have to be ready for that. If you're not ready for that you will probably still get some relief from other modalities / styles provided you have a therapist who's a good fit.