If you still think it was the funny laugh and not the years of being a crooked cop and enthusiastic support for a genocide, you have chosen not to understand the people you want to put down. It's not that you're confused, you're just an asshole.
You have 179 days to find a candidate to support that isn't horrible. Maybe at least try this time? Or don't whinge when the people whose vote you deliberately decided you don't need in order to win don't vote for your candidate and they don't win.