Comrade, this is bizarre self flagellation that is neither helpful, nor permissible behavior. Further, referring to human beings as westoids is concerning, and is entirely devoid of any Marxist analysis. Dehumanization helps no one and is in all instances disgusting.
You do not help the global south by “enduring punishment”, you are not a Catholic seeking repentance.
Wishing harm onto millions of the working class is not how we advance a party line or conduct analysis. Mass dehumanization and repression is the tool of fascist thought.