I'm not going to rashly claim that you should, because it can be unsafe, or not the time for it yet (or not the right therapist), but, getting to the point where, there is enough trust that you can share such thoughts with your therapist, can be an incredibly useful thing.
Sex, violence, and relations with other humans (gender) are big parts of all of our souls.
Making those things into things you are able to work on, is liberating, in my opinion
Do definitely take care of yourself though ❤️