My christian parents mutilated my junk when I was a baby and hit me before I could think. I will never be okay. They chose this for me. I cannot undo the damage they did. I've been drinking myself to an earlier grave because my life has never been worth living.

I have therapy tomorrow. Maybe this therapist can help in a way that the previous four could not, but I'm not exactly optimistic by this point. Just wasting even more time and money.

I need to escape the bible belt, but I fear I am a broken person who does not fit anywhere. I am still trying, for now. Many people find it convenient to scapegoat me for the abuse I suffered, but I was violently indoctrinated into a backwards death cult against my will.

Religion kills. Religion explicitly encourages mental illness. Challenge assumptions to save lives. Just because many people have done it for a long time does not mean it is okay. There are more victims every day.