I do suffer, but I am doing a bit. I play an autobiographical character to help market my educational art project to theoretical past versions of myself who still suffer as I used to. I guarantee what you perceive does not reflect the nature of my suffering, and "suffering" is not the same as "suffering" when I was young. One thing is certain: my life is not in any way "normal," and I'll let the annals of my work speak for me there.