Important to consider is that many transgender people have big time internalized transphobia. I struggled with it a lot. You (might) go through years, decades, of denying who you are to yourself, hating the aspects of yourself that dont conform to the general idea of the gender you were assigned at birth, and that doesn't just disappear when you realise and start transitioning.

I'm not saying every trans person in this thread who describes themselves as "male socialized" is doing so because of internalised transphobia, I'm just suggesting it is worth bearing in mind.