Ok so you get the order from higher ups that shelling this area is forbidden because it is too population dense. You then jerry-rig a kind-of mortar using a grenade launcher in order to explicitly defy this command without getting detected. You note that "it [is]n't the most accurate system and [have] no idea if you ever killed an enemy mortar crew with it", but sadly your training was insufficient to know that you would be putting childrens lives and limbs at undue risk?? And your reaction is basically 🤷?????

Here's a thought experiment: an american community starts to fight back against ICE with armed resistance. One of the ICE agents does the same thing, but years later decides to run as a dem candidate. What (if anything) does he have to do in order for you vote for him?