As a fellow ND person, I seriously relate. It was hammered into me as a kid that I needed to be a good part of capitalist society even if it didn't make sense to me. Now that I've deprogrammed parts of that, I see the pointless bullshit for what it is. None of it makes sense and there's never a reason for most of it outside of 'because the owner of ____ said so.'

It sucks now too because we can't easily wander off like in the days before social media and credit scores