Thank you.

I am... kind of emotionally dead inside, not entirely, I still laugh and cry, but at the level of attempting to have any kind of ... real relationship with anyone, so, I'm not very good at ... conveying gratitude, or warmth.

Apparently this is part of what is called hyper vigilance, a kind of consistent/persistent PTSD side effect.

I've spent too long learning the hard way that trust is impossible, love is conditional and flows only one way.

I... logically know that those things are not true.

But instinctively... they are.

... sorry to get so dark.

Anyway, yes, the recovery is slow but progressing.

Two years ago I was in a wheel chair.

6 months ago I needed either a cane or crutches and a bunch of braces to move around for more than ~30 minutes.

As of roughly two weeks ago, I can manage 30 minutes without anything, though it is painful and I have to be very careful, I usually still use the cane and one or two braces.

So... steady as she goes, this is working, just, slowly.