I'm used to it, haha. This account is mostly for agitprop, I try my best to demystify communism and communist stances, clear up misconceptions about theory, etc. In my experience, those who shittalk communists will get shit thrown back at them anyways on the fediverse, so it's far more useful of me to try to brush any rudeness off and still answer genuinely. I've gained more than a few comrades that way!

As for your individual circumstance, I totally understand that living in a state where the cultural context around political issues can color your perspective. I'm a Statesian, living in the US Empire, so that impacts what internal misconceptions I've had to overcome as well. Hegemony is one of the more interesting topics in communist thought, perhaps most developed by Gramsci.

My advice is to try to see where the information you are getting is coming from. Is it the working class, the politicians, capitalists, etc? Working class organizations, be they communist parties or even labor unions, will generally have a much better understanding of current events without being clouded by imperialist propaganda (though some unions are more compromised than others).

Hey I get you. The great northern birdsnest I still call home has taught me since childhood that everything coming out of Russia has been, is and always will be bad. Just your standard rascism, "ryssä on ryssä vaikka voissa paistais" type of shit you know? "We weren't actually nazis despite what we did with who in the war" and other collected denialisms on top of that. Unlearning the capitalist indoctrination is difficult, but I have learned to lend my critical support for the Russian state in the fight against western imperialist hegemony as my understanding of the world increases.