I mean the unnatural state of inserting something into my veins! It's not right, it's not natural, and it goes against all rules of God and man.

I deal better if I can get them to agree to draw from the wrist or back of my hands, it hurts more, but it's much more dealable. But when they pull from the inside of the elbow? My brain shuts down and I have to distract myself or I'll hyperventilate. It's panic inducing, and has nothing to do with the pain or physical sensation. Best way I can describe it is if you have arachnophobia, it's not like being in a room with a spider, it's like allowing one to crawl around on your face or the back of your neck and being told to sit there calmly. It's fucking horrible.

I don't like any needles in me, but blood draws are the absolute fucking worst. Fevers give me the same panic feeling, but coupled with full body aches and pain in my joints