... and if I can't find the answers, I want to accept what I don't know or will never know

It all goes back to a prayer or mantra I learned a long time ago in addictions recovery

"Grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change,
courage to change the things I can,
and the wisdom to know the difference"

There are a lot of old timers and religious people who originally started this with the word 'God' but in recent years, it's been changed by some to allow a less religious connotation. It doesn't mean anyone is less religious, or less spiritual, or better or worse .. it is just an acceptance of things we can't change, having the courage to change when we should and having the wisdom to know the difference.

It's a mantra and a saying that I live by.