"... Your anger is not coming from a genuine place, so we shouldn't have to respect your anger nor interrogate why you feel so angry because your anger is a personal problem, not a symptom of a systemic issue."

I don't know how to properly communicate my anguish over the idea that what I said came across this way. I am very, very, very sorry.

I know frauddogg's anger came from a genuine place

I respected null's anger and reacted to it with curiosity (because I knew it meant there were things I didn't understand!) and caution (because childhood abuse left me afraid of confrontation, and being flamed – rightfully or not – by a popular poster that everyone agrees with, especially for reasons I do not understand and would get flamed even more for asking about, would have devastating mental health consequences).

my personal opinion is that persistent deep anger is both a personal problem and a systemic issue, regardless of its root cause:

• personal, in that it can be harmful to your health and cause interpersonal friction, but those possible consequences are for each us to weigh for ourselves. sometimes the personal price of rage is worth it.
• systemic, in that things shouldn't be so fucked that anyone ever feels that way.

frauddogg had mentioned childhood abuse, beatings by racists, and had been tricked as a child to sign up for even more systemic abuse – fucking of course null was angry. who isn't angry reading about it?!?

I celebrated null's anger in the lemmygrad masking struggle session that brought void to Hexbear.

I am every bit as scared of getting yelled at by you or kristina or Nakoichi or Awoo or Dirt_Owl or Galaxy_Brain or literally any of you as I was scared of getting yelled at by frauddogg. I hate confrontation and I hate hurting or upsetting people who don't deserve it. none of you deserve it.

I'm sorry.