I spoke with my family tonight. I don't speak with them often (enough). Not that I have a problem with my siblings, or my parents... I love them all.

Got to see the nieces and nephews, and they are all so cute and cool. My siblings seem like fantastic parents.

I wish I was good enough, you know? I'm just a self-isolating depressive I guess. I don't want to bring them all down. Sorry, I guess I'm going to bring you all down instead...

I'm going to keep trying. I have to keep trying.