I have very deep connections with my friends. Not something you just make with anyone new. We've been through so much together. We're there for each other through better and through worse. Even though my life is horrible and I'm completely fucked up and broken, I feel rich with the friendships I have, as not many people can say they have as many friends as I have, with the deep connections my friends and I share.

Now I don't work anymore, I'm struggling to survive with PTSD due to military deployment (which is an organisation which goes against everything what I stand for, but somehow I ended up there, stuck for 15 years. I'm an anarchist, can you believe it?), together with autism, depression and apparently a personality disorder, highly likely some ADHD, which is a perfect cocktail to make everything untreatable and worse.

But now I have time to see my friends again, who support me, and who I can support so I can feel a purpose in life again.

Sorry for making this extremity heavy all of a sudden, but I felt I needed to explain why I would never trade any of my friends for anything in the world.