Yep. Same here. Except weed gives me panic attacks. But I just had (am having) the worst Monday ever and I am the boss at my job and since I'm having the worst Monday ever I said fuck it, put my phone on do not disturb and started day drinking... Basically told my service manager it's all in your hands today and he knew exactly what I meant. Now I'm floating around in my pool with a beer in hand and saying fuck it. I'll regret it tomorrow, but that's a future me problem, not mine. I wish tomorrow me good luck.