Ah, that makes sense. I don't know man, you have way more experience at this than me. The media control is powerful, I think I've often under appreciated how sophisticated it is. I've seen some very smart people I grew up with reduced to raging warmongers with the Ukraine op and some people who were previously understanding of the nature of the USA reduced to supporting Biden due to Trump Bad. Gaza has mostly cured them all, and these were stubborn older liberals. I think Gaza is going to be marked as an historical turning point. We all came from something else. We all have cringe in our closet. If older people are being swayed, then I have a lot of optimism for the youth.
I get the doomer vibe every so often too. I find reading like minded people is restorative. For example this one today put me in a good mood. Just to see that there's a lot of activity and people saying sensible things makes me feel less alone. They're fighting the same battles as you us.