Our school had apple IIe's and I turned out just fine. Don't be distracted by what other people or things can do or look like. You are there to put knowledge in your brain that can help you survive the rest of your life. That's your goal and a shiny computer is not the only thing that's going to get that to happen. A shiny computer isn't even close to being a thing that adds new knowledge to your mind. It is simply a way to pose new knowledge for you to read and learn.... Just as much as a bike can take you to the library and a librarian can point you to a book about gardening.... Nothing will happen until you read the words about gardening and learn what gardening is.