Kinda how I felt about a lot of social stuff growing up. I didn't end up getting diagnosed with autism until I was in my 30s. I played football in highschool and just remember feeling really alienated during huddles.

There were kids shaking and almost foaming at the mouth with excitement and I was just standing in the circle thinking "huh the guys are really excited, man blake is really invested in this game", "I don't think I've ever had so much fun I've gotten angry about it?"