I look back on friends I had, they were always special. Special in a duals sense: Different than "others", rather easy to communicate with and much cooler. They had a tendency to not proper express themself to others, were made fun of and seen as "not normal". However they were always special to me in the sense of special cool, like overlooked gems. Not easy to describe.

I had a coworker, who was like that. He was seen as weird, bad in expression, communication and maybe slower in thinking. Yeah he was made fun of, however only I manage to deal with him and it was actually the opposite. They way of communication was simply different and way more easy going, concrete and without the need to look out which expression something on the face makes if you say something. The process of thinking was rather better and faster, you just needed to include more relevant information and discard unimportant. It was such a dream to describe something with fewer words and he could understand complex abstractions (Work in IT, programming included). Also I was able to understand what he thinks, why and what he means. The same also for him, I was never so easily understood. I liked him a lot and he was easily amazed if I showed cool stuff, concepts or ways to do something. He was absolutely misunderstood. He was not slow in thinking, he was fast. I also need more time if I am not provided with enough information about a topic or rather say with unimportant.

Or an other one I was befriended for a longer time. Weird for others, but actually not in my eyes. Explaining and telling a lot with fewer words, without looking for facial expressions and gestures. Just a dream. Shared interests were IT as well, but also Marxism. His ability to abstract were also superb. Enjoyed a lot to talk with. Friendship ended after long time in an agreement ("Looking now I think it doesn't make sense to continue this", which I could only agree).

However I rarely had other friends like such kind of people. I feel some kind of "kinship" to them in the sense, that they are "normal" people I can actually communicate and befriend. However others are exhausting. I have to look way to much for context if I saying something, can it be understood maybe in a unfriendly way, because I don't invest enough in my facial expression. So much to look for and if rarely befriend one lightly, it doesn't hold long. Because there is a certain difference, which makes it exhausting for me and I feel like I am misunderstood.

My partner is not like that, we are together for 15 years soon and after so much time living together my partner understands me perfectly of course. But I am being told here and there, that I am maybe seen odd and actually if one of they friends visits us, my partner intercepts sometimes to describe what I want to say. I'm glad that this happens but to be honest in my opinion I say everything the right way.

This special people are special awesome and special cool. But it feels like they are not common and sadly rarely find one in my environment. Right now I have no friends, only my partner and my pigeons. The pigeons are also easy to talk with, same as my partner. However a friend would be nice. Does someone know what kind of folks this cool people are? Where to find them? Or am I missing something. "Special" can be sound negatively I can imagine, but I think it is positive. Like special weapon, special agent etc. I mean it positive. You are free to correct me