Been there for years. I'm exceedingly bitter and full of a deep abiding sadness and overwhelming rage.

It's been deleterious to my health.

I can't continue like this. I do what precious little I can to help and protect my community, but it all seems so paltry and inadequate. And I see people with far greater power than I, who claim to want to help, enabling pedophiles and fascists and opposing people who want to make things better.

My soul hurts. At like a 7.

And it just tears me up that I'm the maddest at those who this doesn't seem to faze. Not the pedos or the genocidal or the fascists. The people who look at all of this and shrug it off like it's just the natural order of things and I'm freaking out over nothing. Don't they notice at all?

Sorry, I'm rambling. I'll stop.