It was only because I'm a rebel. People tell me how bad others are and I have to see for myself. A bane and boon, at once. But I also already believed my lying eyes, just sometimes the empire is clever enough to make us question them. And I was already interested in communism for a long time, but couldn't distinguish good information from bad, and I'm still learning.
At any rate, I think the jig is about up, with capitalism. I just hope people will take a leap of faith to the left, rather than dig heels into the rocky soil of the right, so to speak.