His hatred of blackness is based on a delusion, an unreality, a false narrative. Therefore, it doesn't actually need to make sense. He just compulsively uses that narrative to either feel 1) validated, smart, amazing, grandiose or 2) hated, a monster, the biggest victim and villain. He can even flip back and forth between these. These feelings are HIGHLY ADDICTIVE* for them, and it is what they prioritize over EVERYTHING ELSE.

So it isn't about making sense. It is about feeling grandiose and vulnerable. That's it. It never had anything to do with black people in the first place, because the narratives he has around them werentreal anyway. It was about picking something he could get supply from.

_*Addictions aren't really real but for the purpose of this conversation, supply is like an addictive drug