Unfortunately the modlog is so busy and full of activity I don't have the time or focus to wade through it at this time but if you could provide more specific examples I'll talk them out with you.

Again this is why our standard practice is to defer community level moderation to that community's moderators. I've also told you this many times before but you really should make an alt to post/comment with while reserving this account for admin-level engagement.

That's fine you don't need to interact any more I'll go ahead and lock this post. Did you not assume bad-faith when you posted the meme in the first place? I would say you and your fellow instance users laughing about the comment section indicates a lack of good-faith.

It isn't invading when a post reaches

I apologize for not locking it sooner, but I still don't understand how you are being gaslit. It is true you did not disengage in advance, as if you had included your intent to not engage in argument within the post body, locked the post yourself, requested a hexbear admin to lock the post, or changed the community to local only then you would be disengaging in advance as well as exercising your coping mechanisms in a proactive way.

You are aware of your own compulsions, you are aware of hexbear, you are aware of the impact the post would have and yet you did not do anything until the large amount of hexbear activity began after the post reached the top of the active/all post sort.

When that started you again did not do anything other than individually disengage from users that presented arguments you weren't prepared to discuss despite the availability of mod tools that would have coped with your compulsion as well as limited the post's activity.

I don't dispute that it's your space but I do dispute the claim of ableism because you were not targeted or discriminated against for your condition, another neurodiverse person called you out for using your neurodiversity as a shield when you have ample means by which to proactively protect yourself and yet you choose not to use them so that you could have fun riling up Hexbear.

You claimed as much regarding your comment about making similar posts about liberals however since .worlders did not come with concrete, evidence based arguments you did not feel the need to use your coping mechanisms.

ProfesserOwl is not questioning your neurodiversity or your coping mechanisms they are calling you out for excusing your behavior with your neurodiversity.

Ableism would have been to dismiss your arguements as false due to your neurodiversity, instead the commenters engaged with the content of your post and comments. Not one single hexbear has stated you are inferior for being neurodiverse or requiring coping mechanisms for your compulsions. You were called out for being disingenuous with your intent by appearing to be open to discussion but in reality were just wanting to shitpost.

Since you were also engaged in heated, hostile, sectarian arguments it is understandable that those who you were arguing with would return such sentiment. The commenters in the post are engaging with the content of the original post as well as the comments, they are not attacking Autism.

Continuing to engage in self-harming behaviors in the name of neurodiversity does an incredible disservice to neurodivergent people.

As an admin and moderator requires conducting oneself civilly and with dignity which entails not using one’s condition as a shield from accountability, making excuses based on a diagnosis when the individual is able to control patterns both enables misconduct and compounds marginalization and taking ownership of their conduct if they are mentally, emotionally, and physically able.

Difficulty regulating certain behaviors may be a condition, but it does not excuse harming others. This post was made with the explicit intent of harming those who do not fit your idea of what a leftist is and what followed was when you received pushback