First I got an older book for 3.6, I thought maybe following a book is what it takes for me. Then, following this book, I could get my claws in development for longer then 2 hours, and spoke to more folks around me about my project and ambitions, and someone recommended a couple Udemy courses. Found one I liked (Firebelley Games dev), and that got me developing and learning a lot more efficiently. It's still an insane time investment so for me that means I need at least a weekly schedule or I'll just let it go and do the things that give me more instant gratification instead.

Context: I did about 6 months of programming courses in high school and already knew I could grasp the idea of it. It was really just starting up and then really keeping it up.