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[–] 15 points 2 years ago* (5 children)

I feel like I am growing more and more antisocial by the month, and in ways that I never anticipated. My birthday was five days ago and I chose to avoid mentioning it (except to somebody on a Matrix channel). I gave up on voice chat with somebody because of some technical difficulties. I haven’t even touched Discord in a week, let alone attempted to communicate with others there.

Lastly, there is something else that I feel too uncomfortable to talk about in public, but it has pushed me in the direction of more suicide ideation… the main reason that I quit ideating yesterday was that I was afraid of only reincarnating into a life even worse than this one, and I usually don’t enjoy gambling.

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  • [–] 10 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

    Happy Birthday : ) it sounds like it’s been rough for you, and while I can’t ever possibly know your situation, please treat yourself kindly. You’re a good person and you deserve to be happy. Even if it’s just treating yourself a little bit as a birthday gift, I hope things are able to look up for you.

    It was my birthday a few days ago too actually. I took off from work for the day, but no one remembered except for my babushka with a short text. It’s hard not being remembered, but things will look up.

    But again, Happy birthday! I hope this coming year will be better for you : )

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  • [–] 2 points 2 years ago* (1 child)

    Community is the answer. Find people around you who you can love and who love you. They are out there you just have to look. https://youtu.be/wBYjv7dc7Qw

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  • [–] 2 points 2 years ago* (last edited 2 years ago)

    Hopefully this may be useful (I will not ask specifics to maintain anonymity):

    1. If you are able to get access to medical care please book a consultation ASAP. Also look up national/local support phone numbers if possible/able for counselling/mental health/access to psychological therapy.
    2. CBT workbook: https://www.hpft.nhs.uk/media/1655/wellbeing-team-cbt-workshop-booklet-2016.pdf
    3. Exercise - Effect of exercise for depression: systematic review and meta-analysis of randomised controlled trials (TLDR sometimes can be as effective as anti-depressants) https://www.bmj.com/content/384/bmj-2023-075847 Even just doing jumping jacks till you sweat can help (aim 30 min if possible)
    4. However, if appropriate one may still need antidepressants/medication hence point number 1 (however, point number 1 is not just for medication).
    5. Find a supportive community; friends / a real life social network helps. Maybe look for local support groups?

    If I am barking up the wrong tree then please ignore me.

    /edits: clarity

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