Thank you, that actually means a lot to me. I was really frustrated with how simplistic and repetitive conversations around technology were.
I just watch YouTube and laugh. Generally media is how I make the days bearable.
I had tiny biny spiral about the economy but today I cleaned my room at least.
I made entire story like and games in my head. None of it's good of course. I accept that those things are for my enjoyment. I used to right mostly original stories but since have jumped to exclusive fanfiction with OCs.
You are thing of immersive daydreaming. When daydreaming doesn't disturbe your life. There is a subreddit for it if you wanna find people
There is also a subreddit(and discord server) for Maladaptive daydreaming if you wanna check out that too.
Sounds to me like you have maladaptive daydreaming disorder, welcome to the club.
I have stories lines spanning decades of my life. When I used to watch TV, I would leave in the middle of movie or show to do what my family lovely called "vovo", names after the sound I used to make as kid, of explosions and stuff
God, there is so much could tell you. Like the fact that for the longest time I didn't identity with my own face, how my ADHD plays into this. How my imagination isn't just stories lines but Ted talks and game play and therapy and so much more. That while my sister has it, I didn't know until recently, that she doesn't do the pacing and jumping you and I do. That I can't watch, most of time, live action stuff with real people and mostly watch animation and cartoons.
I once caught myself in the mirror while daydreaming and my brain couldn't process it. I was a spectators in this world, my daydream where the real thing.
Its not as intense as this for everyone, some people are immersive daydreaming, where the daydreaming is just a hobby and not an addiction for them.
There is writers blocks, avoiding mirrors, plenty of mdds suffered child abuse. There are studies on mdd you can find. People use music. You steal ideas from shows you watched. You play scenes for days to get it just right. You feet hurt but push through cuz you are so energised and inspired.
There is a subreddit r/maladaptive daydreaming and discord server and Facebook group.
If you have any questions, feel free to ask.
I didn't know you could develop aphantasia.
We have saddle sandals for the bathroom.
Her main problems are concentrating in lessons. We think she may have other learning disability and her grades are suffering for it.
We intended to at least enroll her in summer courses but she's as stubborn as ox. She thinks it is waste of money, feeling that she's just lazy.
I dont think your wrong though, both about me and her, I just dont know where to go from here.
Gonna be honest, anyone else tried of how writers romanticize reading? Maybe its because I grew more cynical in my age. Maybe its because I am more aware than ever, of the publishing industries faults. Maybe its just colonialism.
I have tried looking fiction stories written in my world setting, but they all suck, one way or another. The only real dose of real people's live I get is from non-fiction and let me tell you, you are likely to even found ebooks of those, let alone a traditional hardcover book.
Also, j am from a culture that to this day, still realize on oral story telling.
Could I join? I am both on matrix and discord.
Do you like non-fiction books, mostly on social issues as it intersects with science and medicine, but also middle eastern politics (hello from the deserts), cartoons, subjects like geography, psychology, psychraist or collaborations on citizen research.