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[meta] what's up with the recent account deletions? in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[meta] what's up with the recent account deletions? in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
[–] 18 points 12 hours ago (7 children)

Oh, you know. Bit of the old bipolar. My bf had a work accident. One or two of his vertebrae are fractured. He's lucky to be alive and able to walk. Combine that with the bad stuff I've been doing on 196, mix in my mental health and account deletion is probably the mildest outcome of all of this.

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    rule up in c/onehundredninetysix@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Miisha is gone again :( in c/onehundredninetysix@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    Miisha is gone again :( in c/onehundredninetysix@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    [–] 15 points 13 hours ago (23 children)

    This isn't because of you. This has nothing to do with what you did, even tho it was mean.

    It's because of me. My pretentious support of women's rights while spewing blatant misogyny, erasing the experiences of non-trans gender-nonconforming people, spreading right-wing propaganda, absolutely annoying people who just want clean and readable feeds, basically forcing my obnoxious personality into every nook and cranny of this place. It's all on me.

    So sorry, but it's better this way. Being overdramatic is just my style so just writing this is proof of my extreme arrogance. I enjoyed my time here. Thanks you all.

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    Another beautiful morning in c/onehundredninetysix@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    Hi! First of all, I'd like to thank you for making Photon! It's legit probably the prettiest frontend overall. Thanks so much!

    The only problem I have with it is how it handles one aspect of formatting, and that is line breaks. In any other frontend, ending a line with a "backslash" will create a line break. But Photon does not seem to display line breaks at all, everything is put on a single line, despite the line ending with a backslash. The backslash isn't shown.

    I just wanted to ask if there's some way to change that. I haven't found a setting for it and it's kinda annoying honestly.

    Any help would be appreciated. Thanks in advance ❤️

    P.S: if it makes any difference, my main account is on the lemmy.blahaj.zone instance

    I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    [–] [S] 6 points 2 weeks ago (1 child)

    Loutreeee 😭
    You're such a sweetie and I really mean that ❤️. I got every one of your messages during the current and previous spirals. I really appreciate your concern. Thank you so much for being here for me <3
    Love ya, girl 🩷

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    • I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
    I'm sorry. I'm the worst in c/mtf@lemmy.blahaj.zone
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    I'm sorry. I'm the worst (lemmy.zip)
     

    I'm really sorry everyone...this is all my own damn fault, I'm not denying that in the slightest.

    spoilerI was planning to die today. But I guess I'm not even capable of doing that.
    This is all because I'm such an overdramatic, pathetic loser, an excuse for a human being. After an appointment with a new psychiatrist where her first question was "What is your deadname?" and after she told me I "started HRT late", I just fell into a deeper spiral. Now there's uncertainty if I'll even be able to go to Thailand for SRS, which made me full on suicidal upon finding out, so I just kinda...broke.
    And there's the constant regret of not starting sooner, constant self-deprecating and loathing from feeling like I'll never be a woman. Hating my face and body every single waking second.
    I'm just...depressed and not doing well right now. And I'm making it everybody's problem.

    I'm sorry, but I guess I'm sticking around. I'm not dead just yet. I'm making a new account and starting over. But...at least, maybe you'll believe me now that I'm not actually a good person?
    I'm really sorry. I'm actually the worst. I know that.

    Maybe I should have died. Maybe. But...instead I guess I'll bother you all some more, again, from zero.
    I'm sorry for being such an unimaginable fuckup...

    Sincerely,
    a very depressed trans girl,
    Miisha

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    The difference between my ID photos at -4 years HRT (16 years old) vs 3 months HRT (20 years old) (thelemmy.club)
     

    This comparison always makes me laugh. It's not even really about the changes from HRT, it's just that a lot of things have happened in 4 years.

    16 was probably the worst time of my life. Dysphoria from puberty, suicidal ideation, almost daily SH and a plan to end it all. I looked like I was gonna die, for real. I still carry the scars today.

    On my new ID though, things have changed a bit 😂. I let my hair grow, got therapy, a boyfriend who loves me no matter my gender and, of course, HRT. Dad always told me to 'grow a pair'. Not sure if this is exactly what he meant by that, but I'm working on it 😆

    I'm doing much better now and I'm glad to be here. Thanks for having me, girlies 🩷

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